This is
my declaration of independence...
from the voice that never lets me rest or says what I do or who I am is never good enough.
from the sickness that takes doing anything productive as an "opportunity" NOT to eat.
from the disease that tricks, not just my mind, but my body into pushing beyond the line of healthy, sane excersize.
from the disorder that brings my turmoil unto my family unnecessarily and forces it's rules onto those I live with; to waste money on food I will inevitably abuse or deprive them of foods they enjoy because they trigger binges for me.
from the idea that I can't deal with the downfalls, relationships, rejections, or losses in my life.
from the voice that distorts the real image of my body, my thoughts, and my soul,
or says I need to eat more then physically refuse it,
eat less and then abuse it,
or eat nothing until hunger and fullness are one in the same.
No more will I feel bad, guilty, or trapped for
nourishing my body.
No more will I let it distort who I am or what I see with my eyes.
No more will I let it suck the life from me, the freedom to live how I want to.
No more will I let it take my confidence, what makes me truly beautiful, MY beliefs.
No more will I be afraid to simply go grocery shopping for my family or myself.
No more will I let it destroy me, mentally and physically.
No more will I believe that no one could ever love me or that I could never LOVE MYSELF.
No more will I listen to the negative spin on a compliment.
No more will I surround myself with people who fuel this abusive boyfriend in my head.
No more will I feel bad for eating "too much".
No more will I be afraid to eat.
No more.
by: Alex Buchwald
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