Usually when a person has a disease, they want to get better.
When you have Anorexia, you may be unsure if you want recovery. As with any addiction, you may be able to see many reasons to recover. But you still never feel like you 100% want recovery.
The challenge is to try recovery anyway -- if you're waiting around to feel 100% motivated, you could be waiting around until you die. Literally. Make a list of reasons to recover. Keep adding to this list whenever you can."
If you haven't had the opportunity to see the wonderful ED Recovery videos of Holdingon on youtube, please check them out.