Based on the recent poll, My Eating Disorder: One Word At A Time, one of the highest ranking choices was the word "Shame."
In hopes of helping others to understand and/or relate, Weighing The Facts is looking for your experience with shame and it's connection to your eating disorder. Submissions that are received will be included in an upcoming post. All submissions will be anonymous, listing only your gender and your age. You may include your first (or a fictitious) name if you so choose.
It can be whatever you need for it to be; one word, one or several paragraphs, or a poem. It is totally up to you.
If you are interested in sharing your experience and having it posted here, please email me at MrsMenopausal@yahoo.com.
Thank you.
Poll results can be found here.
Writings on the shame and eating disorders can be found here.
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I am too much
and not enough.
I feel conspicuous
self-conscious
as if everyone
can see
that there's
something inherently
wrong with me.
I am too much -
too much anger
flowing to the
surface
too loud
and too raw
in my expression.
You lock me
in my room
and all I see
is a closed door
reflecting my anger
back toward me.
I am not enough.
I am not neat enough
I cannot compose
myself or
colour strictly
between the lines.
I am not loud enough
I cannot put myself
out there
I feel shame burning
my insides
as you all see
my pitiful core...
the wrong
parts of me.
I am too much
I don't deserve
to take up so much space...
I am selfish
or so you say,
so I learn to deny
my needs.
I learn to starve
my feelings away.
I am too much
but I am shrinking...
I am not enough
so endlessly
I pursue an ideal
hoping it will
transform...or destroy me.
Dear {{{Anonymous}}}},
I have received your writing. Thank you. I will definitely include it with the post on shame and eating disorders which will be posted soon. Could you please email me or leave a comment with your gender and age? I'd like to include it with your writing.
Thanks, again.
Anonymous, your writing has been included in the post on shame. You can find it here: http://weighingthefacts.blogspot.com/2008/10/shame-and-eating-disorders-readers.html
Thank you so much for taking part in this.
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